He's Never Going To Know

You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it. 

 I love him but I cannot show it, want him but he cannot know it, need him but I know it'll never be, if only he needed me. I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi to me, or even smile, because I know even if just for a second, I crossed your mind. I wonder, what I could do or say to make him like me. I wonder, what or who I need to be, to be his. I wonder, when just being me will be enough. 

 I look at him as a friend, then I realized I loved him. I think it's weird when I love you, I think it's weird when I want you, when you don't even know I'm there! I never knew it would be this hard to lose someone I never truly had. I want a new life and I want it with you. It's just hard to think I'll never get the chance to say you're mine. 

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.Do I really love him or am I addicted to the pain of wanting something I can't have.